As I’ve mentioned, Aubrey graduated from preschool today. She did a great job singing all her little songs and Momma was oh so proud. Our first school assembly consisted of her standing on stage and picking her nose for approximately 5 minutes in front of the entire school…and all their families. So really anything would have been an improvement.
I had one of my favorite boys in the whole world with me, (and one of Aubrey’s best friends,) Tristan, or TJ or PJ…depending on Aubrey’s mood. TJ is in LURVE with some electronics, the kid can make my Blackberry do things I can’t replicate using the Owner’s Manual. So while I was taking pictures, Zeb was taking video, TJ was standing in the middle of the aisle with all the parents leaning in get a good shot with my phone!
I held it together while they were singing but completely LOST it when the slide show started. I can remember MY preschool graduation (Shout Out to all you Christ United Methodist Kids!) How can my child be here already? It didn’t help me at all, that I was holding Sadie, my 4 month old who looks exactly like Aubrey did as a baby.
It made my memories of Aubrey’s babyhood seem more like flesh and blood. I could close my eyes and smell Sadie’s baby smell and be flooded with memories of Aubrey. All of those sleepless nights, all the crying, the disciplining, the laughing, the tickling, the chasing-it’s gone by so incredibly fast that sometimes when I’m holding Sadie I could swear it’s still Aubrey.
I tried to control my WEEPING, so as not to embarrass my newly dubbed “kindergartner.” After the slide show, Aubrey turned around in her seat and whispered to me, “You know how that made me feel Momma?”
“How?” I asked her as I wiped my eyes.
“Just a little bit sad.”
Me too baby girl, me too.